I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how people grow mentally and spiritually and the process involved with it.
I see this happen a lot, but let me use myself as an example. I have a constant need for change. If I’m not changing or developing myself in some way, I’m simply not satisfied. Not in a “go hard every day no matter what” douchey gym freak type of way, but in a “I’ll get bored if I’m not moving” kind of way.
This can be exciting and absolutely petrifying at the same time. I have lots of little epiphanies when things just start to make sense for me, but then as soon as I start to talk about them or start living differently, I second guess myself. Everything is easier said than done.
Recently, one of my epiphanies was regarding my religious background. As you know, my childhood household was very conservative, but as I keep asking questions or questioning the “why” behind a belief that I just always blindly held close, I start to change. At this point, I don’t think anyone who knows me would consider me conservative! I am not in any way speaking poorly towards anyone’s beliefs, just admitting that I am finding something different that works for me.
Religiously speaking, I have (in the past) struggled on topics like gay marriage or abortion. I used to think answers were so simple, but it turns out, nothing in life ever is.
When I find myself at a crossroads, I am always tempted to go back to a more limited way of thinking. It’s simpler. It’s what is most comfortable because it is what I knew for so long. I used to just believe anything I was told because I didn’t know better and sometimes that is just an easier way to live. Turns out, old habits die hard because when I am faced with the struggle of religious views vs. issues we are facing in the world right now, it’s easier to believe what I believed as a child!
As time goes by, that old habit fades, but there is still a that little voice in my head tempting me not to challenge anyone or anything. However, with that old habit, old guilt follows. Old shame. Old insecurities. This newer version of me lives in a mindset and belief system that makes sense to ME. I think we all need to find that.
In short, don’t be quick to believe just what your circle believes in. Question it, challenge it. You might be in a good circle! But there is always more to be understood. If you don’t agree with something, at least seek to understand it and then make an informed decision. Silent the voice that’s telling you to take the easy way out. You are individual and have your own thoughts. Share and explore them. You never know who you could become.